It’s funny because this is something that is said by many, but what does it actually mean? To some people, they want to go through a personality makeover. Others, they want to change their physical appearance. All rest, they want to completely reinvent themselves and meet new people and do new things etc. I’ve been thinking though, what does it mean to me? I know I’ve said it loads in the last couple days as a joke, but with the changes I’ve been through in the last couple months I’ve learnt a lot about myself and seen what I want to work on.
To me, the “new” me is just being the best me I possibly can. And it doesn’t start at 00:00 on January 1st 2017. It starts now, well it’s start over the last couple weeks and as we exit 2016, I want to make it all more prominent. I want to be strong. Not just physically, but emotionally and mentally. Well stronger. I do believe that I am very strong mentally and emotionally (with a hint of physical, because I’m a Cheerleader :P), but I want to be a lot stronger. I want to learn how to not let things people do faze me too much. I do care really hard for people, is just me and in my personality but going into 2017 I’m working on putting that energy into myself more then anyone else. So when people do act out of place or whatever, it’s not hitting me like a ton of bricks and I don’t feel anything from it.
I’ve learnt the hard way that people really do take kindness for weakness and at one point it made me want to be a cold-hearted queen. But that’s just not me. I am very loving and I open my heart to everyone. I actually can’t help it, I’m very much a people person and I love talking and meeting new people. That’s not a bad thing, but in the World we live in it makes you quite vulnerable. Moving forward, I am trying to be more cautious with who I let into my heart. Not that I’ll be calling a Drake and saying “No new friends” but I get what he’s on LOL.
I am not the most religious person, but I really want to build on my relationship with God. I’m definitely a believer and he’s gotten me through a lot in 2016 and is still giving me the strength to keep going. I believe it’s very important for me to maintain and grow my relationship with God so I’ll definitely make an effort and invest in that relationship.
I also want to focus on my physical and mental health. I had a little shake at some point in the year and so I need to focus on my wellbeing. I LOVE doing Cheer and I’m super happy that I’ve gone back to it. My team is amazing and so are my coaches which makes every practise a bundle of joy. Physically demanding sometimes, but I do love it.
I also have some AMAZING friends, family and just people around me. I am super grateful for all of them and I want 2017 to continue surrounding me with lovely people. Yes I may have lost some in 2016, but I’ve also gained some which has definitely made some of them worth while.
My new year, new me is very much a change of mentality as that’s where it all starts. I want to remain determined, loving, generous, helpful and free-spirited; but I just want to ensure I’ve got myself in mind always ️